Wednesday, January 28, 2009

Things I will never again take for granted

-The mobility of my right shoulder/arm to open a jar, wash my hair, use a mouse, drive a car, get dressed, play Wii, apply lotion, cut vegetables, sign my name, blow my nose...

-The ability to go for a run, or perform any exercise whatsoever. It's painfully difficult for me to sit around on the couch all day long.

-The option of sleeping in my big comfy bed (I can't lie down).

I'm frustrated that I can't take care of myself and have to idea how long this could go on for.

I have been more or less stranded on the couch since Saturday. I can get up and down as long as I am careful not to jostle the shoulder, but there's really nowhere to go except the washroom since I can't do anything.

All I can say is thank goodness for my family and friends or I would be starving to death and rotting in my own filth, not to mention bored stupid.

I have my moments of stress over work, money, my weight or running and other moments of helplessness, loneliness and self-pity, but I am trying to just focus on resting and healing. I'm hanging in there.

I hope to get some more answers at my appointment on Monday, but for now the pain seems to be about the same. It is manageable, as long as I don't move too much.

Thank you so much for all of your comments - I have been overwhelmed by your outpouring of care, concern and support.

33 comments:

Heather said...

I'm sending a hug to you over the internet . . . what a bummer! I wish I could come make you dinner (and a drink!).

littlesack said...

ugh! Along with heather I'm sending you some love over the internet too. Being that incapacitated is really awful. I hope the doctors have good news for you.

Road Warrior said...

This too shall pass, Marlene, and you'll come out better from it (bionic arm, anyone?).

When I dislocated my shoulder, I was able to sleep on my other side and propped a couple of pillows up on my back to keep me on my side.

At least this gives you an excellent reason to be lazy!

Jess said...

I can't imagine having to deal with all of that right now and still maintaining such a postive attitude like you are! Me? I'd be spewing profanity between shoving fistfuls of pain killers.

J said...

I feel similar to you since I have been sick since saturday as well! I hope you heal fast and things get better for you!!

Mel-2nd Chances said...

{hugs} i know how hard it is to not be able to do something you so badly want to do... sucks, but you will heal, and you will be back out there kickin' butt. Plus, just think about how nice it's been not having to shovel lol. I hope you get some good info on monday.

Unknown said...

I was always told "This to shall pass". It may seem it never will but eventually there will be a time that this will be a distant memory. I hope this virtual hug will help.

Carly said...

Hang in there! I have been in your position several times and it truly is the worst feeling. You have an amazing attitude, keep it up and you will be back on your feet in no time.

Marci said...

I'm so sorry Marlene, that really sucks. My mom broke both of her wrists once and required constant care. Hang in there, I'll keep my fingers crossed that you heal quickly. You will be back at it in no time, I am sure!

Runner Leana said...

Yay for all of your wonderful friends and family. Unfortunately I can't do too much besides send hugs! Hopefully you have some good tv to watch. I highly recommend Mad Men.

joyRuN said...

Oh, crap. That's not good :(

{{HUGS}}

Hoping for a quick healing.

Lily on the Road said...

Heal and get better, take your time and know you will never be lonely with all of us peering into your computer screen!

;^)


{{{hugs}}}

Unknown said...

I wish there was something I could do to help. I keep thinking how awful this must be while your husband is away. It sounds like you have good friends and family helping you though.

As for not taking the ability to exercise for granted - I feel the same way now. Too bad it takes something like an injury or illness to "see the light"

Sarah said...

So I guess this means no more CC Skiing?

Hope that made ya laugh!

See you Friday!

Denise said...

I just posted about how I'm swamped and haven't been able to comment on blogs...but I had to check in on you. I feel so bad. Hang in there!! I'm sure it's so frustrating and upsetting. You'll be better in no time.

ShoreTurtle said...

Wow! That's just awful. I feel so bad for you. Hopefully Monday will come quickly and you can get some answers. Hang in there.

Lindsay said...

big huge virtual hug!! (that doesn't hurt of course)

hope it eases up so you don't have to wish the weekend by, and that monday comes sooner that it feels like it will!

Unknown said...

Words my daddy always said when things weren't going good or I thought he was working me too hard, "If it doesn't kill, then I'm not working you hard enough". This too shall pass and you'll be stronger and work harder.

Laura said...

Wishing you speedy healing.

Vickie said...

Marlene, this is certainly a setback for you any way you look at it. I can't blame you for being frustrated, depressed, and angry about the way things happened. Two years ago I was hit by a car when riding my bike. One of my injuries was a broken scapula, along with 8 ribs, so believe me I know all the things you are going through. Some things you have going for you are: you are young, you will heal fast(er); you already had the determination to lose weight and train for a marathon, so that won't go away; and you do have friends, family, and the blog world to see you through this. I am betting you will come out of this with more determination and build more strength to see you through to your next goal. Be patient with the healing though and good luck!

Unknown said...

I'm sorry:( That is a huge bummer,but know that it is just temporary and you'll be back to normal hopefully sooner rather than later!

BeachRunner said...

Dang. Get well soon. That stinks.

Stacey said...

Hang in there! Sorry that you are hurt, hope your shoulder heals quickly!

Tatiana said...

I'm thinking of you my dear. And sending all my good vibes your way.

Tatiana said...

I'm thinking of you my dear. And sending all my good vibes your way.

Marcy said...

(((HUGS))) chica! I can only imagine the pain and frustration. Hang in there! Here's to a speedy recovery!

Aron said...

hang in there girlie!!!!! i am sure that is just so frustrating, i hope you heal SUPER fast and can be back out running in no time!

Kristen said...

Hi I'm a new runner and I love finding running bloggers. I am so impressed that you have run a marathon. My goal is to do at least one but for now I'm sticking to the halfs and lower.

Sorry to read about your injury. I hope you get better soon.

X-Country2 said...

Hang in there. I suspect it's very very challenging, but it'll get better soon. Take care and let people help you.

Felice Devine said...

BIG hug. I hope you heal quickly!

Brian said...

uGH!! Get better and hang in there, if you feel crappy just blog it out!

Sonia said...

What a sucky situation with the hubby far away!! At least you know you're well surrounded even without him! Take care of yourself, self-pity is totally normal. I would go crazy attached to the couch!

Laurel said...

Uuuggghhh...that stinks so bad! I hope you heal up fast. I'm so sorry. I can't imagine what you're going through.